New Life

Novitas
Growing up in a Christian home I would say can be a blessing and a curse. I was always taught that God loved me and came to rescue world from his own wrath and destruction. I was under the impression that it was my job to mark another tally off that represented the souls that would now be in heaven because of my evangelism skills. From church 4 days a week to Christian school to preachers kid it was pretty hard to escape the gospel. But something didn't seem right. The highs from church camp, the Sunday school lessons it didn't match up.

The time I was sitting in youth group and ppl were being called into ministry. 100s of people every week receiving  the envious calling.Was there something wrong with me? Why wasn't I being called to be in the coveted ministry? had god forgotten about me or was I not worthy?

Or the time I was in a new testament class and was told I was defying gods will because I didn't have long enough hair and I should know my place. So what was my place ,where was my voice besides a pastors wife, school teacher or housewife?

Or the time I was in college taking a spiritual inventory and my results came back and my professor was extremely irritated because it said I would best fit the role of a pastor and suggest that I take it again. What if I took it again and I got the same results? Was my holy spirit meter off? I did take it again and got the same result and was told I'd be a great support to my husband in ministry someday.

As I journeyed toward wanting to know the truth, I started to ask questions. I began to learn that gospel that had been taught to me and that I had been sharing was simply fire insurance. It was to shock and to save. As I began to discover pockets of truth through professors, mission trips, and some people who thought differently aka those hippee Christians it started to come together. It most made since when I read

Rom 12:9-21

It wasn't about the tally marks, the rules, the calling  or the spiritual inventories. It was about people. It was about love. It was about being Christ to those around in me no matter where I was or where I work. So as the story goes on I am encouraged to live love. Do good and never give up.