The accidental vegetarian who sometimes believes in God

I feel like we know each other fairly well enough to share my current thought of the day with you. But, no judgement please unless you actually read the whole thing!

Sometimes I would consider myself a vegetarian based on my diet.

Sometimes I wear leggings as pants.

Sometimes I don't believe God.

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None of these things are on purpose. I find myself standing in the midst of life saying "yeah, I guess I do think that or I guess I do that." It's not something I set my mind to. It just sort of happened.

Ok, now what do I really mean by that comment of not believing in God? I mean I don't believe in God as in how people are currently portraying Him/She/It. 

I'd like to tell you a little bit about Larry. I have this guy at work who is so adamant about telling me the word of God and how I need to see that we are to follow it word for word.  There seems to be a scripture that offers a "simple" solution to whatever my problem may be at that moment. He explains that all I need is to be open to the harshness of the instructions God has given us to live a better life. This all really being about My soul. My afterlife. Well, fuck that guy.  All the scriptures and judgements. It comes across to me that all he cares about are the stars he will be getting on his crown.  He just wants to get his point across.  Does he give a shit about my time spent in hell? It sure doesn't seem like it. So, what does Larry do about people like me? 

What do we do with those people who want to do the right thing? Those people who believe there is a better way than what we've been taught?  Those who want the death of religion and the rebirth of love? (Coined by Kent Krabill) 

Larry, is really just doing what he thinks God is asking him to do. I feel I am doing the same and yet Larry and I don't agree on anything when it comes to spiritual matters. I guess my question for Larry would be what do you think Jesus was really all about? (Which I have asked him and that's another blog for another day.)

This concept that we have to believe a certain way to get to a certain place is absolutely crazy to me now. Hell. Heaven.  Who gives a shit? Jesus spent less time talking about those concepts and spent most of his time talking about the kingdom now and loving your neighbor.  I may be off the deep end here, but who came up with this idea anyway? 

Not sure where to go from here. Everyday that passes I feel more compelled share that there is a better way. To associate myself with the community around me that is seeking to be better.  Better to the people around me. And not just for a crown or because they feel like they have to do it but because they find themselves in the midst of wanting to find and feel true love.
We will choose to find love despite the odds, the ridicule, the disbelief. 

I leave you with some song lyrics 

Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurtin', hear them cryin'
Do you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

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